Sunday, April 01, 2007

So, whats the craziest thing you've done lately?

In the movie Girl Next Door (2004) Elisha Cuthbert (who plays Danille) asked "What's the craziest thing you've done lately?". Emile Hirsch (who plays Matthew Kidman) couldn't answer her, because he was always uptight and straight, never did anything people didn't expect him to do, just follows the rule book. It got me thinking, when we reach old age, maybe around 60 or 70, are we going to be the kind of person that says "I don't mind dying now, I've done everything and i regret nothing" or are we going to be the kind of person that says "I don't want to die now. I haven't done this, i haven't done that... I haven't lived enough". I started doing things that people didn't expect me to do... crazy things... some stupid, some daring... but its not to show that i have some guts, i do it so that one day i can say "I did everything and i regret nothing".

But my idea of the craziest thing I've done changed recently, i found out that its not about doing stupid things, its about finding something you really care about and risking all you've got to hold on to it. So, whats the thing that has changed me? I fell in love for real this time, and finally its not one sided. I call it the craziest thing i've done lately no because i'm playing it like a game, its because it has changed me into a better person. Love is crazy, sometimes there's ups and sometimes there's downs, but its really worth all the effort in the world because i know she's worth it.

In the same movie, Emile Hirsch made a speech about Moral Fiber. He said:

"Moral fiber. So, what is moral fiber? It's funny, I used to think it was always telling the truth, doing good deeds, basically

being a fucking boy scout. But lately I've been seeing it differently.

Now I think moral fiber's about finding that one thing you really care

about. That one special thing that means more to you than anything else

in the world. And when you find her, you fight for her. You risk it

all, you put her in front of everything, your life, all of it. And

maybe the stuff you do to help her isn't so clean. You know what? It

doesn't matter. Because in your heart you know, that the juice is worth

the squeeze. That's what moral fiber's all about."

Thats what I'm doing now. I know that the juice is worth the squeeze. She's the one that I'd risk everything for. Although i might not have been a good person in the past but I'm changing into one bit by but each day because of the love and care she shows me. I just hope that I'll be a man worthy of her one fine day. Then i'll take her hand, and never let go. I know we're meant to be together...

Thanx for everything... you know who you are :)

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Anonymous said...

Awwww Thats so sweet :). There should be more guys out there with that kind of mind

Jonathan Nathan said...

Thanks! It's nothing special. I think deep down, all guys think like this but most are in denial. :)