Sunday, January 29, 2006


It’s frustrating when you finally think that you’ve found something precious and later find out that its fake and imaginary. I get depressed when things I start to care about suddenly just turns around and spits at my face. It’s hurting and I just can’t stand it anymore. I thought I thought finally found real love but it turned out to be something cruel. She really took advantage of me, she just didn’t feel the way I felt about her. I hate pretenders. I would understand if she told me that she didn’t like me in the beginning but she played me and didn’t even tell me her intentions. To me, that’s the cruellest thing that someone can do to a person that trust and believed in them when others didn’t. I’ve finally gotten over her. I wish her all the best in her life and I’m still her friend. She’s meant to be with someone else. I’d be happy for her if she finds the man of her dreams but she really blew it with me. Well, you know the old saying, “There are many fish in the sea”.

Decision on my future… well, academically to be specific…

I’m deciding on my future as far as my studies are concerned. I’m finishing my Diploma in April and graduating. My results seem to be great and I’m sure that any college or private university would take me but I’m so fussy. I’ve decided to pursue a career in Networking. Its something I’ve always wanted to do. The problem is, there are very few places that offer this Degree course in Malaysia. I’ve found one in APIIT (Asia-Pacific Institute of Information Technology) in Technology Park, but they haven’t got approval from the government to run the course n most probably, it will only start in 2007. What the hell am I going to do for 1 whole year if I wait for the course to start? So, unfortunately I had to drop that and find an alternative. All my other alternatives seem to be second rate because Malaysia isn’t really big on Networking Degree courses. The other place I’m looking at is University Tenaga. It’s course looks nice but its far away from home. I would like to live outside my home for once but the expenses would be quite high and I don’t know if my dad can support me. It would also mean that I’ll lose my current part-time job and I won’t have money to splash around. That would really suck! That’s the dilemma I’m facing now. The choices are there but the decision is heavy and could alter the course of my future. Let’s just hope that I make the right decision and that I won’t regret my life in the future.