Changing...

I feel like somehow I’m changing, changing into this person who has given up on everything I hold dear. Like I’ve given up on myself. There’s still that one thing that I wish I had, but also afraid to lose. I’m afraid that I’ll never get it back. Its too precious, too important. Giving that up hasn’t been easy on me. It left a hole in my heart and doubts in my mind. God hasn’t given up on me but I feel like the world has. I guess I’d better get used to solidarity. It’s a difficult transition but I don’t have a choice. ‘A man is a man because of the choices he makes’. I guess I’ll have to make my decision, and I don’t think that I’ll take the easy route out of this.

Empty Void in Me

I feel like I’m trying to fill an empty void inside me. I feel like something is missing, but I don’t know what that is. I’ve tried everything to fill that void but it just keeps getting bigger. I hate filling up that void just to make myself happy for a while. Somehow I know that it will haunt me after that. I know I cannot rest till I find a permanent way of closing that void. I hurts badly, sometimes takes me to the brink of depression. What can I do?

Stars Are blind

Somehow I really like the lyrics (especially the chorus part) to this song and the tune of the song is also quite good. Kudos to Paris for her debut in singing but I won’t say that she did great, it’s a good effort at most.

Paris Hilton – Stars Are Blind

I don't mind spending some time
Just hanging here with you
Cuz I don't find too many guys
That treat me like you do
Those other guys all wanna take me for a ride
But when I walk their talk is suicide
Some people never get beyond their stupid pride
But you can see the real me inside
And I'm satisfied, oh no, ohh

Even though the gods are crazy
Even though the stars are blind
If you show me real love baby
I'll show you mine

I can make you nice and naughty
Be the devil and angel too
Got a heart and soul and body
Let's see what this love can do
Baby i'm perfect for you

My love, ohh oh

I could be your confidante
Just one of your girlfriends
But I know that love's what you want
If tomorrow the world ends
Why shouldn't we be with the one we really love?
Now tell me who have you been dreaming of
At night at home? oh no, ohh

Even though the gods are crazy
Even though the stars are blind
If you show me real love baby
I'll show you mine

I can make you nice and naughty
Be the devil and angel too
Got a heart and soul and body
Let's see what this love can do

Baby i'm perfect for you

Excuse me for feeling
This moment is critical
Might be me feeling
It could get physical, oh no, no no

Even though the gods are crazy
Even though the stars are blind
If you show me real love baby
I'll show you mine

I can make you nice and naughty
Be the devil and angel too
Got a heart and soul and body
Let's see what this love can do
Let's see what this love can do
Baby I'm perfect for you

Baby I'm perfect for you

Even though the gods are crazy

Even though the stars are blind

Even though the gods are crazy

Even though the stars are blind

Does love need a reason?

One day a gal asked: why do you like me..? why do you love me..? HE answered: i can't tell the reason.. but i really like you.. SHE: you can't even tell me the reason.. how can you say you like me? how can you say you love me? HE: i really don't know the reason, but i can prove that i love you. SHE: proof? no! i want you to tell me the reason. my friend's boyfriend can tell her why he loves her but not you! HE: ok..ok!! ermmss.. because you are beautiful, because your voice is sweet, because you are caring, because you are loving, because you are thoughtful, because of your smile, because of your every movements. the gal felt very satisfied with his answer. unfortunately, a few days later, the gal met with an accident and became comma. HE then placed a letter by her side, and here is the content: darling, because of your sweet voice that I love you... now can you talk? no! therefore i cannot love you. because of your care and concern that i like you.. now that you cannot show them, therefore i cannot love you. because of your smile, because of your every movements that i love you.. now can you smile? now can you move? no, therefore i cannot love you... if love needs a reason, like now, there is no reason for me to love you anymore. do love need a reason? NO! therefore, i still love you... and love doesn't need a reason "sometimes the best and the most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen, cannot be touched, but can be felt in the heart" love doesn't need a reason... its something you can feel burning inside your heart and waiting to be explode of love... please.. never ever ask someone why do they love u…

I have served my purpose... nothing left to look forward to...

Everyone born on this earth has a purpose. Life just travels in a loop, we do the same things over and over again everyday and we always look forward to a purpose. What happens when you have served your purpose and there’s nothing to look forward to anymore? That’s when you start feeling empty, abandoned, restless and useless. You begin to hate yourself and also those around you. You feel like no one needs you anymore and the world will still move on without you. I feel like I’ve served my purpose and I’m lost… so what now?

My Special Someone

Sometimes you don’t realise how much some people actually mean to you. When the whole world comes down on you, you think that there’s nobody to hold and console you. You feel like the whole world has abandoned you. Then, there is that special someone who comes to your rescue. The love that you feel from this special someone is greater than any you have ever felt before. Somehow, you become addicted to it, you feel that it’s apart of you and you need to feel it everyday. When you face a problem, difficulty or feel lost, you just picture this person in your mind and everything just melts away. I have found my special someone. Have you?